I dreamt of Ben. In my dream, he was laughing and swimming in a lake. I tried to call to him, but he just kept laughing. I tried to reach out to him, but he swam away from me. What does this mean? That he is in a happy place now? I still miss him so much…
I started my babysitting job recently. I decided that Mrs Maynard (Jackie’s mom) has been too protective of Jackie. She puts on Jackie’s clothes for her, feeds her, brushes her hair… Jackie is not allowed to do anything at all! I decided that I am going to teach Jackie how to brush her hair. It’s going to be a secret. I’ll teach her and then give Mrs Maynard a lovely surprise.
Oh, talking about surprises, I was surprised today. I met Tony again. Yes, the boy I have been dreaming about for the past few months… Tony is Jackie’s brother! He’s still as handsome as I remembered, but I realize he’s not a very nice person. He’s rude, and bossy. He didn’t even greet his mother when Mrs Maynard came home, and just asked her to wash his dirty clothes. And he told me to make breakfast for him! I mean, I am employed as a baby sitter, not a maid! I was not too happy about it, but still, I thought I’d be nice and make him something to eat. Tony looked down on his sister too. I think he blames her for causing his parents’ divorce. He thinks that Mrs Maynard spends so much time taking care of Jackie that she has no time for him and his father. Suddenly, I pitied Tony. I realize he has a lot in common with my own sister, Katy – a lonely child who feels jealous because he is not getting enough attention from his mother.
Just yesterday, I think I managed to get Tony to get along with his sister. He is going to help me to teach Jackie how to put on her shoes!
I met Mr Henderson one day while taking Jackie out on a walk. He told me to go back to youth club and said that Jeff mentioned that he misses me. Oh my, what can this mean ~~~ ? We went to visit Ben’s gravestone. Jackie was playing in the cemetery, and I wanted to tell her to stop at first. However, I thought that Ben would have wanted her to be playing and having fun, so in the end, I let Jackie play. Ben would have joined her in playing if he could…
Anna
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
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to me,if u dream of somebody that has passed away and is happy,the person is very happy in where he or she is now...so i think that ben is in a happy place now and want u to be happy like him...
if u wanna teach Jackie how to comb her hair,do teach her...it would be nice for her to be combing her own hair and it would be a big surprise to Mrs Maynard!goodluck in teaching her...
speaking of tony,well,to me,he is quite a arrogant guy becoz he treats his sister and mother very rude!if i am his mother,i would give him 1 TIGHT slap in his face immediately!!!even if it is his sister who caused their parents to divorce,he should have care for her much more that anybody as there is one lesser person to give her their love...and whats more,he's a grown up boy...no,should i say he's a men now?he should wash his own laundry now...
well,time flies...i have got to go...bye..
Aloysius
In your dream , you should let Ben go free. He can't be with you anymore. Its a fact. ( Sorry if it hurts you ) .
Mrs Maynard seems nice. But she shouldn't spoil Jackie so much. Its good that you're teaching Jackie how to grow up doing stuff herself(:
Tony , he was spoilt by Mrs Maynard too. It wasn't his fault that he could blame Jackie.
Because all along , he kept thinking that Jackie was trying to break your family up.
well , that's all i gotta say .
but always remember that no matter what happens , people will be there for you.
Loves ,
Dawna
Yes. You dreamt of Ben,which is GOOD. (= In your dream,he kept laughing and swimming in a lake. This means he have rest in peace ? And yes. This means,that he is in a happy place. (: It's good that you miss him so much,because it meant that,you did not forget him after he died,but you have let him go in peace to a place where he is carefree. And yes,Jackie's a little pampered. I agree. I think Jackie don't even know how to brush her hair,wearing her own shoes and more ? I think you are able to teach her more then brushing her hair. Like,wearing her own clothes,wearing her own shoes,going to the potty herself and more ? I BELIEVE you can teach herrr ! And I think teaching her,will let think of Ben while working,all the things you did for him,and maybe you could even teach Jackie what you teach Ben ?! (: Ohs. It's good that you met Tony again. Note : DON'T dream about Tony again,after you know him. Advice to you : Don't get into relationship when you are studying ! (: And it's kinda rude of him,not to greet his mum,when she came back ? And,I think that Tony is trying to get his mum attention ? But I think it's not the kind of way,he should attract his mum. (: But I think,he's now better. I think after you teach him / tell him. He won't despise Jackie already. JY in baby-sitting Jackie and teaching her . (:
LOVE !
Helllo Anna ;
Well. I am gladd you dreamt of Ben . Somehow this is a good beggining, a good starting .
To me , i wuld think that if you dreamt of that there is only one meaning ; . Ben is really peacfully happily in heaven. At least he wont need to sufferd frokm that condition. Itm ight seems easy but painful to him .
He swam away from you telling his great beloved sister that he is going away . Just a long trip. But i think he really wanted you to know his happiness in the heaven . ;;
iam gladd you started your babysitting job . It was great . Jackie's Mother --Mrs Maynard was overprotecting jackie because of her condition.this is just a mother's love [[: Mrs Maynard might think that doing things her own is dangerous for her. It might be ; Maybe teaching her to brush her hair was a great idea. Not to give Mrs Maynard a surprise but to give Jackie a learning idea. {{:
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That was a surprise; well not surprise on metting Tony but surprise on his stupid attitude.
he is muchh more irritating than katyy. wel wel ; i wuld simply gibe him one tightt slapp. Alrightyyy; how could he do suchh thing . well; but at least now he did triedd to go along with his siter; &&stupid stupid stupit.Trying to act like a booss ? Not untill a hundred century ltr .Want a maid? Go hire one . Theres no need for him himself to talk to his mother like that . It is SO! styupidd ; ges much moree irritatinggggggg!!!!!
hmmpt. anyways; oh well; take a look at jeff. There might be some meaning but who knows it is just a friendshipp idea :DDD
cheer upp xD
Be a good babysitter xD
im sure you love it..
Much apprecitaion :DD
LOVEDDD ;D
Anna, learn to let go ... you dreamt of Ben because Ben wants you to forget . He's happy now because he doesn't have to suffer anymore =)
Jackie is still young . You have to teach her stuff like what you taught Ben . I am sure that you will be able to teach her . Remember , treat her as if she's Ben . Be patient and spent time with her .
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If I were you , I'd choose Jeff than Tony . Tony is a spoilt child . He doesn't treat her sister , mother nor you well .
He is a grown-up . And he can't do things himself . He's such a bad boy =x
Stay happy .
Be patient .
Study hard .
Choose wisely ;
Look carefully ,
A book cannot judge by its cover .
i think that ben is trying to tell you that he is in a happy position and wants you to stop worrying too much about him...he knows that you love him just like the way he loves you...
tony is very different than the way you thought he was. he seems very rude, bossy and has no respect to his elders. if he was a member of my family, i would do illegal things to him.
jeff does seem to miss you if that is what mr henderson really says because remember the last time when he pass you a message, he got your name and diana all mixed up. who knows if he is making the same mistake again...
and you should do whatever it takes that you think that would make ben happy because when you know that he is happy, you would feel happy too...
so always be happy and good luck with your future!!!
-asyran
you dreamt of ben , & he was happy
thats a sign that ben wants to show you that he is living
happily in the other
world .
he do not need to suffer .
you dont wish to see him sad & miserable right ?
neither does he wants to
see his own beloved sister
to be sad right ?
in your dream you mention that
he was laughing and swimming in a lake .
isnt it great ?
it shows that
he's living in peace .
you said that Mrs Maynard
do not allow Jackie to do anything
maybe because ,
she's afraid Jackie would get hurt .
put your shoes as a mother , who would want their children to get hurt .
teaching her to comb her own hair is great :D .
if Mrs Maynard knows
she would be surpirse & proud
that her daughter with this
condition can do something
without the help of anyone .
but , you would need to
have patience dont lose your patience .
all the best yeahs .
tony could be jealous ,
that his mother treats his sister
better just because of her condition
he might thinks that his mother
might be spending alot of time on her instead on him .
& maybe he's just plain jealous that his sister got
all the attention from his mother
causing the neglection TO him & his dad . thats
why it cause them to divorce ?
well , sometimes human beings tends to get jealous over small matter like this .
but i dont really know ,
cause i'm the only child & my parents dotes on me(: .
& its great that you
manage to help Tony get along well
with his sister .
its very nice of you helping them .
& yeah , Jeff misses you right .
haa , then go back to the youth club & visit him yeah .
that would stop him from missing you as he gets to see you :D .
all the best in baby-sitting .
i'm sure you are good at it .
tkecares ,
SHERMAINE(: .
hello anna (:
in your dreams you dreamt about Ben living happily .
i am sure he is now . he left the world , put down the sufferings he had suffered all this times .
would'nt it be great ?
it's good that you are coping well with your baby-sitting job ! sometimes , Jackie being spoilt is alright because she is disabled after all . By teaching Jackie some skills is very creative as allow her to be independent to brush her own hair .
TONY ! Tony ! TONY !
Anna , forget about him .
although it is quite impossible as he is jackie's brother . But , he is such a rude boy !
i am sure i would want a friend like him ! I think is okay for him to be angry at his sister . You see , all the attention is drawn to his sister , Jackie . Mrs Maynard cares for Jackie more than him .
He is so lonely and someone with little mother love . Would it be a little selfish if we just side with Jackie and think is not right for Tony to get jealous .......
:O
all the best on your job ^^
wish me luck for my litreature exam tomorrow ! haha XD
take care ,
CHIYU
Hie Anna~!
Hahas... I think that dreaming of ben , maybe he wanted to let you know tat he is now very happy even though he is dead. =X Sometimes maybe you can look on the brighter side. Maybe when he died , he will not suffer anymore?
For you babysitting job recently , as what you had mention that Mrs Maynard has been too protective of Jackie , I agree. If i am her mother , i would be like you , teach her how to put on her clothes , eat ,brush her hair , then let her do it all by her own. So that when she grows up , she can do everythings but not depending on others. Even she is a little difference from others , maybe teaching her all these little simple things would change her. Even abit can make a difference.
As For Tony , i think that he should not look down on others... he should put himself in others shoes. He should think that Jackie also do not wish that she was born like this. I would also tell him that everyone have their pros and cons, we as a human should learn how to forgive and forget. Once again , look on the bright side.o.o" Tony also shouldn't treat you like this. If i was you , i would scold him no matter what. I would continue to scold him till he is awake.
Life is short. Try to enjoy while we are still alive not matter what happens. (: Take care :D
-Jiayi
Hi ANna..! Heard Tat Todae Is Ur Last Dae Posting..
Anywae.. I Think Tat When U Dreamt Of Ben.. He Might Be Trying To Tell U Something.. You Said Tat In Ur Dream, He Is Happy.. So I AM Sure He Is Happy And Wanted TO Tell U Tat He Is Living A Good Life Now..
ANywaes.. I Think Tony Is SOrt Of A Spoilt Boy And Is Very Arrigant U Should Not Go With Him As He Might Even Throw Temper On U.. SPeaking Of Him..He Should Care For His Own Sister Jackie!! He Is A Grown Up!!
Well.. I Have To Go Now.. See Ya!!! Thnx For Updating Us About U By Posting On Blog..
Wey Han.. T.T
Anna,
about the dream, maybe ben is trying to tell you to be happy, so carry on with life. <3
and wow, i was also surprised that tony and jackie are sibling.
that's really nice of you trying to bring them together by asking Tony to teach jackie how to wear a shoe. welldone (Y)
and yes, maybe tony feels this way as he might be jealous like kathy, you can try to talk to him. (maybe consel him)
im really glad that you are helping jackie.
continue the good deed. <3
*proud of you*
Hello Anna , Ben is now in a wonderful place and he is free from all the sufferings he had . Now you have to let Ben go .
Also i think that Tony is spoilt and he is very rude . If i were his mother , i would have gave him hell .
All he think is that Jackie broken up his family , and it's very selfish . Anyway , remember there is always a lot people to care for you .
Cheer Up and Take Care :D
JACKIE!!! she knew how to know i feel that is a great delight ! hahahs Tony is bad treats his mother like that so baddie man! i meant was like calling his mother to wash his bloody clothes and all sorts of stupid think and even call Anna peacock to make him drinks so idiotic shes a nanny not a maiddy!!! mind you! its really stupid you see and playing in the graveyard is astrocious but for Jackie and Anna i feel that its OK because Benedict will surely allow them to play if I'm not wrong. And its the holiday, Anna is free anyway so it would be a great ideal that she really be a nanny-a part time one of course but she also need to have some revision of course and well if there is a second version of the boook, i will sure read it its a wonderful book with nice and peaceful ending...imagine having childhood memories playing in the graveyard in summer where the trees turned yellowish and imgaine helding my weedding there of course not in the graveyard mind you! it willl really be a wonderful experience :)
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and i totally agree SIUSUAN(no other intentions) that Anna love to let go and Ben really does not need to suffer anymore =)but i dont know he need to suffer a not no idea
Anna. good for you that you are having fun with Jackie... I bet Mrs Maynard will be surprised once she finds out about what you tought Jackie... And it looks like you got a surprise yourself when you found out Tony was Jackie's brother... Look Anna, Tony is a spoiled child and he looks down on his sister because she has down syndrom and because he feels that Jackie was the one who broke up the family... You cannot blame him... It is similar to how Katy felt about Ben... Tony just cannot see trough the thick shell around Jackie... Thats why he can't see how fortunate he is to have a sister who is even, at least, able to walk... Tony blames his mother for everything just like how you used to blame your mother for everything... He is going trough the same things you had already went trough but he doesn't know how to overcome them the way you did... He needs some one to show him that there is more to what meets the eye... maybe you can help him to see... In fact, you have already started helping him. The moment Tony saw how Jackie was able to comb her hair by herself, I think that was what made a big impression on Tony... Once you have helped Tony see things trough a different point of view, I think he will be able to appreciate things a little more... one step at a time, Anna, one step at a time... Now, as for Jeff on the other hand, don't think too much about what he said... some times, thinking too far is what leads people to misscomunications... Remember the note that was supposedly for Diana? that whole incident was caused because you assumed it was a date with Jeff instead of being sure if the note was even for you or if the note was for some other kind of meeting... so don't let what Jeff said get to you Anna... Who knows? Maybe Jeff said that because he wanted to play table tennis with you? You said it yourself that you were a good table tennis player didn't you? so do't jump to conclusions too soon alright Anna??? well, good luck!=)
Hello Anna :D
You dreamt of Benedict because he still misses you & vice versa .
He's now in a happy place (:
With no worries & have freedom
How's the babysitting job ?
I'm sure you had fun taking care of Jackie :D
Yea .
Mrs Maynard have been too protective ,
But she does not want Jackie to do things on her own ,
Worrying that it might hurt her,
Or Jackie might have difficulties doing it O:
But its good that you taught her to comb her hair .
It means that Jackie have the ability to learn ,
Although it is tough teaching her ,
But at last she still managed to comb her hair by herself :D
Saying about Tony ,
Have you ever thought what had affect his impression about his mother or sister ?
After his sister , Jackie was born , the family seemed to have been broken up .
It seems that Tony had been affected by this matter ,
Causing his attitude towards his mother & sister to be like that , as in cold & impersonal .
Even though he is rude ,
But he even felt jealous .
It means that he wanted his mother to shower some care and concern for him.
Perhaps he felt left out ..
It had not been fair for you ,
To even help to iron his clothes .
&& instead of being appreciating ,
He even told you it is the wrong way to iron the shirt ,
And he took over the iron and ironed his shirt to show you the correct way of ironing .
That's rather .. Spoilt.
Yes , you should use the oppotunity that now he's at home ,
To let him get along well with Jackie,
It might change his attitude towards Jackie & his mother
You should go back to the youth club.
Jeff misses you ,
and you can relax awhile .
Babysitting is rather stress , i assume :P
Hees , see you missed Ben :D
Anyway , the feeling you had for Tony or Jeff , could be infactuation .
The feeling fadesaway after awhile (:
Lovees ,
Joanne :DDDDDDD
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